Friday, November 17, 2017

Mood seriously affected

I have no other place that i can vent out all my misery.

Cant really post it on any social media platform.
and now even telling friends i dk who i can tell to and who i can trust.

Feeling super lost.
Like the trust i have for you was so so much.
i can trust u in going out late drinking, going overseas with your bros and friends.

But now.....
i just dk how to....
this trust..... is it even broken i dk.
but i can only say i have doubts.
i cant bring myself to trust you fully.

can u teach me how ?

having to be at work now, tears running in my eyes and i am holding it back so strongly.
Cause i am at work.

wanting to get drunk and irresponsible.

想哭但是不能

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

This fragile life

No one knows the meaning of living until you met death in your face.... 

It's the fear you have that allow you to hold hope... 
But don't let the fear of doing anything holds you back... 
If you never try you never know, at least you don't live your life regretting and thinking about smth you could have done

I wan to lead that kind of life, with no regrets...

But.... The fear... 
It overwhelms me... 
Move forward ba 


Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Late night posting ? No it's more like dawn

So I just done watching the drama episodes...

Feeling sensitive maybe pms ? 
I don't know... 

It's these late night that makes you wonder... 
How will things turn out if the path I chose was different 

Would I experience different things? 
Or will history repeats itself... 

I wish there was a way to turn back time... 
And I would like to change a few things... 

Like un-meet some people, undo some decision....
Cherish those that are no longer here more... 

I miss u my loved ones... 
When life is tough I think about you guys
Because that is where I find comfort in 

The feeling of a true home and the dearest position you hold in my heart


 

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Feeling grateful

For all that I have and all that I was given... 
I have always taken for granted 
Whenever shit happens I start thinking why does this keep happening to me... 

Now I get the answer, because it is part of the life experience I have to go through to build who I am... 
The choices I made the path that I take determine who I becomes and who I bring into my life... 

So when life poses a challenge to you accept with grace and find a way to resolve it... 

Knowing that people in third world country don't even have what I have and I keep complaining about shits.... 
This isn't right and I feel the best way to defeat life's shit... 

Is to appreciate and be positive... 
Even if it's upsetting, try to look at it from a different angle... 
And I am sure it will become better 

Just like my determination to slim down 
With the hard work and believed that I can do it.... 
I will and I am achieving it 

Friday, June 17, 2016

Slimming down finally ?

I have started working out like 2 weeks back and fell sick after 1 week..

Stop for a week and going to start back again... 

But guessed what I weigh myself and I am down by 2kg...
I need to keep this up like seriously ! 

I can do it... I know I can and I will..