Monday, December 2, 2013

Update lo

It's been soooo long~
I am back lo....

Been busy earning money and so lazy to blog .
My life have been filled with ups and downs

Just ended work at the SITEX 2013, as usual relax maximum .
Updates.... 

Working at club Benz as waitress now so feel free to drop by ok ? 
18a Bali lane club Benz level 2 
It's near bugis behind haji lane 

Will be going to help my cousin out during jan for her events . 
and hopefully things would be a better year for me in the coming year ! 
Because 2013 is really a very bad year for me :( 

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Confuse little me

Haha . 
Here to rant .
In the middle of the night~~ 

It's almost dawn... 
I wasn't confuse with my feelings but always yours . 
I really dk what I am to you . 

I always tell myself that you feel the same as I do . 
But I guess I was wrong . 



Monday, October 7, 2013

Jobless still

Haiz... 
As most of you know I'm still jobless . 
Haha . 

Tried so much interview . 
But... I'm just not hired 
Wtf man ....

Please let my luck be better . 

Thursday, September 12, 2013

5 years friendship ?!

Obviously this blog post is dedicated to the ones known as HB 

This group of close Gf that I found in my poly life . 
Goes through school, project, oversea subjects and mostly ups and downs in our life ever since . 

But recently I had a argument(?) or should I say I practically lost all my ability to tolerate with them and cause a arguement with them . 

I won't share on the issue further . 
As I believe if you are their friends/colleagues, you might already heard their version . 
I am someone who HATE to have to convince others on how they see me . 

Since from start they believe that just an apology is enough then blame me for being petty . 
Blame me for being not understanding . 

So now...
Here I am... 
I just want to say good things . 
I dun wann to go on and on about this . 

So... 
To that dear Supeng, 

Thank you for being there in school, despite all the difference you and I have . 
Thank you for introducing me those brilliant novels to read as I dun have much friends that keep up with reading . 

Note for you: despite you being busy and all, I appreciate the time you text me when you know I am down . So THANK YOU . 

Next... 
To that dear Zoelyn, 

Thank you for being such a true friend to me, never in my life I have met someone like you . 
Calm and cool and mysterious before known to be friend, funny, cute and action after knowing . 

Note for you: please take care of your health if there is smth wrong go see a doctor . Dun always say "nothing de la, it'll be fine" 
Really appreciate for what you and I have been through so THANK YOU . 

Last but not least... 
To that dear carol, 

Thank you for whatever shit you have put up with me since poly . 
When I think back, you are the ups in my downs, the one who always get "bullied" by me . 

Note for you: please look after yourself before you want to take care of others, you maybe strong but you are still only human . 
Love life wise, I wish you all the best and I hope you heed the advice I gave you before . Anything just tell Zoelyn or Supeng or your "sisters" . 
THANK YOU for giving in to me and I apologise if I make you teared at all throughout the years . 


I would like to thank you girls for the video for my birthday . 
Love it loads . 

Thanks . 

Thursday, September 5, 2013

People come and go

I guess I should have already got used to this . 
People coming into my life 
Stay awhile 
And leave . Period 

It's just that some hurt 
Some left memories 
And some just didn't matter at all . 

Thinking back ... 
No matter what . 
I'm greatful in having those who are in my life and stayed til now . 



Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Burden

No one knows... 
No one understands .... 
And honestly no one took the effort to find out . 

I'm sick of this le . 
I'm just sick of this thing call friend . 

Monday, August 26, 2013

Boring me is boring

It's been awhile... 
Too busy to keep updating social platform . 
Haha 

Time passes so fast didn't it ? 
I'm already turning 22 . 

Gosh ! 
To think back so many things have happen . 
I have grown up as well . But I wan to be a lady . 
A super skinny one ! 
Haiz 

Always wonder would my life be better if I can slim down ! 
I believe I can . 

Dunno what else to update about le . 
So until next time ba . 



Monday, August 12, 2013

Inconclusive

Hello~ 
I'm back to rant lo~ 
Miss me ? 

My birthday is coming soon~ 
I am excited for that ! Hehe . 

But that is not the reason why I'm back here . 
I am back to share my confuse little lonely heart's feeling . 

I have been back in the market for like close to 3 months . 
Have my fair shares of eye candies, suitors and etc . 
Just when I thought I have given up, let go of him, reality shows me the truth . 

I would say I am disappointed in myself . 
Why couldn't I hold my stand, why am I so weak when it comes to this . 

We were both once a stranger to each other . 
Then we became friends, more then friends and lovers and no body and friends .

I thought I could see you as a normal guy friend like any other I have . 
But I am just deceiving myself . 


Lets not be strangers again . 

Sunday, August 4, 2013

When life gives you shit...

I am well aware of how screwed my life is right now.... 
But there was nothing much I could do to stop all those things from happening . 

But despite how shitty things get . 
I am glad that I have friends that care for me... 
Be there for me, hear me rants, cheer me up and of cos lend me a shoulder to cry on . 

Things are slowly picking up . 
And I really hope it will get better . 

I really wann to thanks my dear girl Priscilla for being there 100% despite she has no choice . Haha . 

Sharon, my dear HB for texting me despite we kind of lost contact . 

To also those who text and show me your care and concern . 
I'm grateful ! 

The old me will be back ! 
I promise ! 

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Birthday month

It's a new month lo~~ 
It's the birthday months of Singapore and mine ! 
And of course my fellows Virgos and Leos ! 

Wishing everyone to have a great birthday month . 
Cause I just know it will be good . 

There is just so many things I wann to update but dunno where to start . 

Everything is coming to an end soon . 
And hopefully the next one I chose or fall for can treat me better 

Load of love from me ^^ 


Friday, July 26, 2013

Bad luck hui hui

I have to say.... 
Most of the things that are happening in my life is not going my way at all. 

It started since.... 
I dunno when... 
I guess things just didn't went well and I'm affected by so many other things 
Attracting more and more negative events to happen around me . 

So now I keep telling myself . 
Everything will be fine. 
And things will turn out ok . 
Look at everything with a more positive prospect . 

After the total meltdown the other day . 
I am more or less sure of it 

My bad luck has run out . 
Thing will be better for me 
I will find an awesome job that pays me well and gives me good benefits and appreciate me . 

I will be able to cherish every love ones I have around me . 
Despite the arguments, I still love them truly . 

I will be able to be loved by someone who thinks I'm special and loves me for me despite my flaws and imperfections . 

Lastly, I will be able to flourish in whatever things I do and be successful and set a goal to not let others bring me down . 

The only person can bring me down is me and not others . 
So I shouldn't let others . 


Friday, July 12, 2013

Bangkok trip with le girls

So I promise to post .
Blogging on the way to work... 

I'm so sleepy~ but oh well....

So me and the girls went to BKK not too long ago . 
We did loads of shopping and eating and even massages . 

It's fun to go overseas with just friends . 
No parental control... Hehe 
Even though we didn't went to drinking places neither did we drink . 
But we had our fair share of fun and satisfaction from the shopping . 
Though it was tiring, it was all worth it . 

I won't eleborate on the details of the days . 
The pictures will explain, a picture speaks a thousand words right ^^ 



























Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Clarity

"Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?"

I guess it's really like that huh .
letting go~

it's always never easy to let go....
because the feelings will never be gone, just buried .
from now on i have to change the way i look at you le .
i believe i can .

even if we tell others we no longer care or love that person...
but somewhere in us, we know that is not entirely true .

why lie to ourselves ?

no longer my lover, neither my ex....
i should see you the way i seen you in the first place, a bro .
hahaha

i have to believe so .

sometimes knowing too much hurts so bad .
but i rather know and let my heart die then to carry on any false hope .




Friday, July 5, 2013

Updates

Hi guys,

Its been awhile...
will be blogging out my BKK trip soon.

Will schedule it to be posted next week .
i am thinking of going under the radar for a month or so....

haha .
i know it may sounds silly .
but....
i dunno and feels unclear about a lot of things....
so....

Starting from next week....
i wont be tweeting...
posting pictures on insta .
will just and rest out for a month .

Miss me loads k

Thursday, June 27, 2013

sick bug

Dear all,

I'm sick.....again....
Need to be less weak.
Like a seriously !

Immune system like a super bad only....
Need to go to the doctors soon...

IF i dun recover that is...

Nothing much to blog about now .
Will update again on my BKK trip...
Just now into it now .

Sorry guys .

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

I'm Back

Hello !!
*wave*

I'm back from my BKK trip lo .
hehe .
bought tons of clothes back .
plenty of shorts, skirts, tops, croptops and maxi dresses .
Happy girl is Happy .

coming back to singapore brings me mixed feelings though .
hahaha .

dread to be back for work .
but happy because the people i love and missed are all here .

Knowing that i can see them and hear them, makes me feel heart warming .

i dunno why....
but i feel weird....

i'm wondering if it is due to my sudden flu bug....
i just feel weird .

I really love those who are in my life.
Family, Friends, Sisters and most important my love.
Will cherish the time we have together .